If you follow these posts, you know I have a tendency toward activity: 12 steps to do this, five reasons to do that, fill the bingo card with M&Ms...
A few nights ago, I was led in a guided meditation to imagine an encounter with a Great Healer. Imagine the healer's hands on my head or shoulders, imagine the look of compassion, imagine the message.
The Great Healer said to me: "it's all right. You don't have to try so hard."
Exhale.
I spend time in the busyness of healing: exercises, right eating, right thinking – even meditation becomes another item on the to-do list.
This message reminded me that I am not in control. I don't have to spend energy and effort being in control. No amount of self-improvement will get me into heaven.
I am called again to turn my will and my life over to the God of my understanding.
Selah
Kate Wolfe-Jenson dances out loud with her ailing body and her monster-mind, helped by art, faith, and twelve-step philosophy.
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- Kate Wolfe-Jenson
- I'm an artist who has been living with multiple sclerosis since I was 20. I've discovered that thinking about chronic illness and healing as a creative process helps me move through the hard stuff and get back to the joy. Visit www.dancingwithmonsters.com to find books, newsletters and other services that can help you dance with your monsters.
2 comments:
What a nice post. I've had MS since 2000. Now, I've started blogging. It helps especially when I come across ones like yours. I look up to your spirit and voice. I hope my blog lives up to the standard you are setting here. I'll be back.
Thanks for your kind words, Nicole. Writing is good for my soul and having people read it is fun. I look forward to hearing more of your voice!
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